The first thing to say is that I am pulling out of NaNoWriMo. I am extremely surprised at myself. I started out with every intention of winning. But by about day eight I realised that my novel was not working out the way I wanted, and then on Friday the thirteenth (oh!
I am not exaggerating when I say that I agonised over the decision. I really did. I don't like losing!
This happened with the last novel I wrote. I believe I got to about 40,000 words (as opposed to about 20,000, like this time) before I realised it wasn't working, and so I took the same idea and made it into a new novel that I ended up feeling very proud of. But it didn't happen during NaNoWriMo. I feel very, very disappointed with myself, but I guess it's just something that didn't work out and isn't really worth getting upset over.
A big reason for not carrying on with it is that I do actually have something else to do with my time now. I spent the last week working for no money in a school just up the road, in a little area called the Learning Support Centre. Kids go up there when they're struggling with their work, or when they've got some kind of emotional problem. I do a bit with them, and a lot of filing and photocopying and traipsing all over the school with messages. Obviously I wish I was getting paid, especially since I'm doing more hours than most of the people who do get paid, but I'm not complaining. I asked them to take me on, and said I didn't care about money, which I don't. Well, not much. Working for no money is better than doing nothing. It's keeping me more or less sane, it should do something to improve my job prospects and when I get to work with the kids, I do enjoy it.
I am so sick of looking for work. I'm going into rant mode now - do feel free to skip over it if you want to. Now then. There are only two things I feel I'm good enough at (is that grammar?
I might as well tell you - it particularly stings at the moment, because earlier this week I had to endure the worst rejection yet. They wanted four people, and of the eight that they interviewed, they decided that only one was good enough. This at least tells me that it wasn't my fault - they are just ridiculously picky. They said I got all the interview questions right (because there are right answers, you know
Oh, look, I just did rant about all those things. Well, that's it. Rant over. For anyone who decided to skip the whingey bit, rant ends here.
So, to sum up, I am not feeling too brilliant at the moment. But I'm sure I'll move on from it soon, especially since I now have something to do with my time and am no longer the most useless human being on the planet. And I am sorry about all the personal pronouns in this journal. I am not in the habit of sitting and talking (or typing) about myself - or only about myself, anyway - but there it is, I am feeling rather sorry for myself at the moment. But anyway, how are you all getting on?
Ah, yes, now. Before I (finally) finish - would anyone be interested in a position at *simplyprose? I always seem to be looking for staff, and it is rather a source of stress for me, I'm afraid. In fact - I'll admit it - I am thinking of handing control over to somebody else. If somebody else would be willing to accept it (first refusal going to staff members, of course). But first of all, we need a new critique/commenter. Spread the word, and let me know if you'd be interested.








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